I guess the first thing I had to accept, once it was quite clear that I was suffering from PTSD, was that I wasn’t going to be what I thought of as normal. That was over. But with the benefit of medical cannabis, I’m finding a way toward being transformed from where I’ve been lately. Spending several tours in fierce combat simply changed me. It changed me minute to minute perspective in general. That’s a wholesale change and tough enough to work through. But the fact that I’m now dealing with so much fear, pain and anxiety was more than I could handle on my own. That much was clear. Prior to reaching out for help and getting the benefits from medical marijuana, I could hardly come out of my house. All I could feel comfortable seeking was absolute safety and numbness. That’s where I was and my PTSD was the reason. But my sister helped me find a therapist who uses a more holistic approach to my condition. Part of that approach meant I had to get access to a cannabis dispensary. The cannabis flower products that help me so much are available in legal weed stores now. That’s a great thing. The medical cannabis really helps me both face my fears and the illusion of them, while also imbuing me with a more positive outlook. Plus, it really helped me get over being in group therapy. The medical marijuana helped me to really hear people. And that helped me feel a whole lot less alone.