I guess the first thing I had to accept, once it was quite clear that I was suffering from PTSD, was that I wasn’t going to be what I thought of as normal.
That was over.
But with the benefit of medical cannabis, I’m finding a way toward being transformed from where I’ve been lately. Spending multiple tours in fierce combat simply changed me. It changed me minute to minute perspective in general. That’s a wholesale change plus taxing enough to work through. But the fact that I’m now dealing with so much fear, pain plus anxiety was more than I could handle on my own. That much was clear. Prior to reaching out for help plus getting the benefits from medical marijuana, I could hardly come out of my house. All I could know comfortable seeking was absolute safety plus numbness. That’s where I was plus my PTSD was the reason. But my sister helped me find a therapist who uses a more holistic approach to my condition. Part of that approach meant I had to get access to a cannabis dispensary. The cannabis flower products that help me so much are available in legal weed stores now. That’s a great thing. The medical cannabis entirely helps me both face my fears plus the illusion of them, while also imbuing me with a more positive outlook. Plus, it entirely helped me get over being in group therapy. The medical marijuana helped me to entirely hear people. And that helped me know a whole lot less alone.